It's all over

There is a time in your life that you realize all those dreams you have had are not going to happen, if you haven't done it yet its too late. i will never record my own music. i will never be swept off my feet, with a romantic gesture i will never regain the beauty i had. Yes pessimistic, but my whole life i have had direction i have had a goal, now i am in the realisation my deepest dreams will never come to fruition i will never acheive what i thought i deserved, what options do i have now renegotiate my desire to become something less.

self pity

How many times do you have to be stupid, to be stupid? How many coincidences are to many? When do i trust my mind over my gut? Where do I draw the line? When is it enough?
Why am I the bad guy when it comes to protecting myself? why always me? Why now? How much pain do i have to feel before i can just feel good?

I stay positive, i do my job the best i can, i give to others, i care about people. i live, each and everyday i get up and i try, i try to do better to learn from my mistakes, learn from others, ignore the critism, try to smile... why do i deserve it to be so hard? what do i have to give for the world with start giving back?