Always uneasy

I am always uneasy, never comfortable in my own bones, always expecting the worse, consumed by my own paranoias, and this i know is seeming dark i am fully aware why i feel what i feel when i am feeling it so therfor can talk myself out of it, but never can get rid of it, i can analyze myself to the point of phsycotic, and never see a clear answer i sometimes see what other can't, understand what others don't feel through others and understand why they feel what they feel, why they do the things they do. i can see what stereotype people fit into before they do and can predict somewhat where they will find themselves in the future.. i am not talking about fortune telling i am saying i can predict situation they may cross due to certain personality traites, the people they fall, the beleifs they have, the way they solve problems, the way they relate to others.. it tend to be a burden i dismiss poeple quickly, judge others lives and be dismissive of them, and i find it hard not to argue with the close minded people that will always be idiots..and i find it hard to trust.. which brings me back to the begining

Unsure of things

My mind ponders the what ifs in life, how can i be so content, then an overwhelming feeling that there is something more out there lets me question wether my need to slow down has let me settle for less? Everything i have been desiring, i am not desiring anymore, and i feel like somethings missing, a hole that makes me want to cry, emotional and now angry at the people around me, because they aren't the people i saw for me.. what i want to be there isn't. But it was, how can i get that feeling back? the lust that drove my passion for everything i love. I have done this so many times in my life, and the stupidity out weighs the sensabilty, but my priorities are not about me anymore i have more to think about, and i am lucky, i have something very special. Is this a passing feeling something that will go away with time? Or is it my inner being telling me to keep looking? questioning what i thought i had found, what if i am one of these people that can never be content with what i've got, am i always looking for the next best thing?