NOT MY PROBLEM

If your tired and cranky don't take it out on me.. NOT MY PROBLEM.. if someone else is not appreciating you do not attack me.. NOT MY PROBLEM... if you have made a decision on what someone else has said.. and they changed their mind.. NOT MY PROBLEM.... i can live my life make my decisions, have my own opinion listen to who i want.. if you have a problem with this IT'S NOT MY PROBLEM....

I'm tired

I'm tired, i am tired of being tired. I feel like i am at the centre of everyones lives, but somehow circling around them in abiss, i take all of there worries, and i care. i do not have a person i can worry to, and it seems at times i do not have a person to worry about me. I know i am cared about, but sometimes i would love to have the space to cry and not feel guilty about it, to worry or feel overwhelmed. I feel like i have to be contained for everone else.. i am peoples voodoo doll, they prick me and hurt me when they need to feel better. It may be a slight dig at my personality, or a past indisgression, or yelling at me when they just feel like yelling.. i am tired of being a bandaid. I deserve the happy days to be happy about me. i like the person i am, who i have become, i don't regret the mistakes i have made.. i hate being told i have no friends, i do i am selective of my friends i expect allot from them, the friends i have i will have for life, and i can't meet new people i am a stay at home mum of two children now.. i have no time. i barley have time to wash my hair or do dishes.. i make sacrafices for my family. i am so tired of being undervalued and unappreciated. there is no forseeable way for me to fix this or solve these issues.. so i will continue everyday to get up put a smile on my face and carry on.. and hope someone one day will see how truley amazing i am..