I'm tired

I'm tired, i am tired of being tired. I feel like i am at the centre of everyones lives, but somehow circling around them in abiss, i take all of there worries, and i care. i do not have a person i can worry to, and it seems at times i do not have a person to worry about me. I know i am cared about, but sometimes i would love to have the space to cry and not feel guilty about it, to worry or feel overwhelmed. I feel like i have to be contained for everone else.. i am peoples voodoo doll, they prick me and hurt me when they need to feel better. It may be a slight dig at my personality, or a past indisgression, or yelling at me when they just feel like yelling.. i am tired of being a bandaid. I deserve the happy days to be happy about me. i like the person i am, who i have become, i don't regret the mistakes i have made.. i hate being told i have no friends, i do i am selective of my friends i expect allot from them, the friends i have i will have for life, and i can't meet new people i am a stay at home mum of two children now.. i have no time. i barley have time to wash my hair or do dishes.. i make sacrafices for my family. i am so tired of being undervalued and unappreciated. there is no forseeable way for me to fix this or solve these issues.. so i will continue everyday to get up put a smile on my face and carry on.. and hope someone one day will see how truley amazing i am..