Just to vent

would love to clarify the confusion in a relationship. Trust isn't a given, it is to be earned. Trust is a process and when you have trusted, and you have been destroyed, it takes a long time to repair the damage this has caused, months, years even. Myself knowing how much i was injured mentally before. I have years of repair ahead of me, and when you were notified of this, asked to do certain things to ease my nerves, and except certain things about me, that i have learnt to do out of protection of myself. And you ignore my request, you do the very things i have asked you not to do, and then turn it on me that i am at fault i should not check up on you, Yes i admit i shouldn't but i also said to you that i would, but on my side of this you should not be afraid if i do, there should be nothing that is kept from me.. I entered this relationship on an arangement of complete honesty and openess, no secrets, no lies, no passwords..