A page to return to..

It's hard to know the person you are. With out knowing who you are. I know everything about myself, with out truley being able to be honest with who i am all the time. I think everyone believes they know who they are. I believe they justify who they are to themselves to get through life, so we don't wallow in our own self pity. I do not believe in a truely selfless being, even the most selfless are living there lives this way for a selfish reason. To feel better maybe about the contributions they make to the world. I myself consider myself to be kind and considerate to others, but it has always had limits, and it is always driven on my belief of what is right, just because i should not 'cause i want to. and it is because of this thought that it is no longer thoughtful or selfless, i have done this action whatever it may be, to appear caring, considerate, thoughtful but if i was this way it wouldn't be a thought it would just be the action.. I am completely false.
In knowing this does this somehow take me beyond other in my self awarness, have i migrated to the next level of being? I ponder these things because knowing what i do about myself gives me an insight into others, why they do what they do believe what they beleive. i am an atheist, i find some people hide behind there beliefs in order to guide them somehow. so they can understand themselves better, but in doing this they're drifting further away from who they are. because they are undersdtanding themsleves through another person eyes. It is in truth, a way of hiding, masking themselves, convincing themselves of a belief so no one will be able to find the real person that exist, they have no longer based themsleves in this reality. but i reality someone has designed for them..